When we went to Leeds, we didn’t know anyone. Titus’s future was unknown–we didn’t know what was going on with his liver. I was battling post-natal depression. We struggled to find accommodation, and we were quickly burnt out on hospital accommodation. Our trip to Leeds General Infirmary was not at all what we had planned. Those six long weeks there were a very dark time for our family. The darkness and pain made it difficult to see that God was with us every step of the way.
It’s a bit like when Jesus’s disciples were walking on the road to Emmaus. Jesus had died 3 days before, and the disciples were disappointed that Jesus didn’t seem to be who they thought He was. They were filled with sadness. While they were talking, Jesus appeared to them, but the disciples were so distracted by their sadness and disappointment they didn’t recognise Him. That sadness and disappointment caused them to miss their Saviour’s presence.
‘While they were talking and discussing together, Jesus himself drew near and went with them. But their eyes were kept from recognizing him. And he said to them, “What is this conversation that you are holding with each other as you walk?” And they stood still, looking sad.’ Luke 24:15-17
In my disappointment over going to Leeds, I was unable to see God’s presence–even though He was clearly there. We connected with a church and met a handful of people. Even though we struggled to find accommodation, we were never without a place to stay. God was even with us, filling Titus’s hospital room with His supernatural peace.
God was there in our sadness and darkness. He wanted to be there, walking with us so we were, and still, are always in His presence.
And do you know what?
He’s there with you, too. He walks with you in your sadness and disappointment. He wants you to be in His presence. No matter what you’re walking through, God is always with you, to the end of the age (Matt. 28:20). I pray God will open your eyes to enable you to see past your pain so you don’t miss Him–miss His presence, because He wants to walk with you.
