What should you have done this year but didn’t because you were too scared, worried, unsure, busy or otherwise deterred from doing? (Bonus: Will you do it?)

Source: geograph.org.uk

To be truthful, I haven’t explored options for what I’ll be doing here in England. I know what my interests  and skills are… Or do I? Maybe I don’t because I haven’t explored any options yet. I’ve been here for almost three months… What am I waiting for? I’ve known I’d be moving here for some time now… What’s the problem?

I’ve avoided seeking opportunities. Sure, I’ve only been here for three months. What has kept me from at least looking though? I’ve been rather busy with learning things about living in England, keeping our home, and making our house a home. Those are my excuses, and maybe that is partly why I haven’t explored opportunities here.

Another contributing factor is fear. I’m always a perfectionist, and I always will be. I think I like to have things all figured out before I try something. Life has taught me that I’m not going to have all my ducks in a row. I fear failure. I’ve failed at other pursued opportunities—won’t I fail at this or that one as well?

Being in a new culture (both England and missionary life), I’m a little unsure of everything, too. I’ve been purposely taking my time getting comfortable with life here, and I’m enjoying it… mostly anyway! This is probably a major reason why I haven’t pursued any opportunities yet. I’m not bored here at home, but I wonder if I need to do more with my time. It’s a difficult balance because while we don’t have children yet, our home is my priority.

I’m hoping in the new year to start pursuing some opportunities. Get involved. Ask around. Take action. Stop avoiding.