So it’s been a year. I’ve been a mother for an entire year. How did that happen? Better yet, what happened?

The other day I was out with Asher and my mum, and I realised how much more confident I feel as a mum than I did a year ago. Ok, so I still don’t have this mother thing figured out. I may have the “baby thing” with Asher figured out… now that he’s considered a toddler.

Being a mother is a selfless and often thankless job. It didn’t take me long to figure that out. It makes me better appreciate God’s selfless love toward us. The verse, “Greater love has no one than this, that someone lay down his life for his friends” (John 15:13) has taken on a new meaning in my life. Just substitute baby, son, child, family, husband etc… for ‘friends.’ :)

I suppose technically I became a mother twice this year. To Asher, and once again to a little baby we’ll never know because I had a miscarriage. Having a miscarriage is one road I never expected to travel (Does anyone expect it?). And yet God has faithfully led me down this road. The emotional pain from it is still fresh, but I’m thankful for a God who has been my comfort through the pain.

It’s been a roller coaster year. I’m pretty certain most years with children are going to be roller coasters. The best thing is, next to God being on His throne through it all, is that children really are a blessing… whether we get to hold them in our arms or not.