Empty Places and the Territory of Grief (The Day my Hard Drive Died)
Grief can only be avoided if we fill up that empty place with meaningless things. We don't want to think about it because it's painful. I sat down in front of my laptop at the
A Letter to my Son on his 1st Birthday
My sweet Titus-boy, I cannot believe it's been a year since we welcomed you into the world. Your life was a wild and bumpy ride, and you changed our lives forever. We had some challenging
Rediscovering Hope
It was Monday evening on the 4th of January. Leon and I had just settled the kids into bed. We could finally breathe a little after a long day. Titus moved to hospice that day,
Secrets, Early Pregnancy and Hope
Hope doesn't always show up the way we think it should. Three years ago, we announced a pregnancy in the first trimester. We were thrilled to have the privilege of welcoming another little one into the
When You Can’t Make Sense of the ‘Why’
I curled up on my bed after a very long, emotional day in February 2013. Just hours before, I'd learned that the baby we were expecting had died 5 weeks prior. All of my hopes
The Shape of Grief
What is life after loss like? Some compare grief to a rollercoaster. Others compare it to massive waves in the ocean that come and go. Grief also varies in shape and size, like rocks my